If this event had taken place a year before, I would literally be strangling my friend’s neck for landing me in trouble, and perhaps, later I would regret it. But it did not. It happen today and trust me, not for even a single minute was I mad at her. I was inwardly disappointed at myself only; for not knowing the correct answer. But not at her. Why would I be?
Actually if I had been, the whole case would have been different.
See, what happen is we had an exam and both my friend and I did not know the correct answer because THAT QUESTION was a trick question. (Note: cons of reading at last moment!)
So consequently, we wrote the wrong answer. I was hesitant at first of the question and I thought the right answer, but since I could not recall the text properly I agreed on what my friend suggested and we wrote the wrong answer. TOGETHER! 😛
So, as usual, after submission of our paper and on enquiring about the answers, we were enlightened that our right answer was actually wrong. I was numb for a moment because I thought maybe my friends were playing with me, but no; it definitely was wrong.
Now 2 things would have happened,
#1- I may have shouted my lungs out and swear her profusely for telling me the wrong answer
#2- getting over and off with that thought.
And trust me involuntary, TOTALLY INVOLUNTARILY, I choose the second one. I did not feel 1% anger on her. Why would I? Arrey, even she wrote the wrong answer yaar. Even she had written the wrong answer. And I know no one will deliberately want to tell the wrong answer during an exam. Nope, not even to your bitchiest enemy!
Morally IT is just so wrong!
The thing which I learned about myself is “OMG! WHAT IS THIS! IS THIS ME?” How did I behave in such a way? Because trust me, whoever among my close friend is reading this knows what I was a year or two before. I am 100% sure had the incident happen before I would kick that person, that too so badly. I would insult him/her for starters. Definitely a yes. But I did nothing of that sort. I was so calm.
When I got home and became sober, this whole incident irked me. I never thought I could be this person. And I am so proud of myself today. Its not like I’m least bothered about this exam just because it won’t add up to the finals or anything. Definitely I learned a lesson today. But maybe the reason why I did not behave the way I WOULD have is because I am so content now. On thinking if I would have behaved otherwise, it would be so bad, for both of us. There would have been a tuff between us, things may turn into a fight, little irritation etc. But I choose to overcome that. I OVERCAME THAT.
I AM JUST SO HAPPY AT MYSELF TODAY FOR THAT.
IT IS RELIEVING.
I FEEL SO LIGHT.
[Yeah, like this picture! ;)]
AND OH! WAAAIT! THIS DOESN’T MEAN NEXT TIME IF SOMEONE DOES THE SAME THING I AM NOT GOING TO PUNCH THEIR FACE.
Everyone knows my anger. The rate, the velocity, the depth, breath and whatsoever: of my anger
But I showed no sign of it today. And it’s a sign of improvement within me.
It’s not like I have become completely immune to anger. It is difficult to reach that level, but I am quiet happy at my new “achievement”!
I learned two things today.
#1: Maintaining relations are not tough, if your motives and feelings are true.
And secondly, IT IS EDUCATIONALLY VERY IMPORTANT TO READ BETWEEN THE LINES!
Just so you know, don’t do this to me if you value your facial contours.
Just kidding. 😀
^Nope, not kidding at that.
Randomly came up with the thought of writing this down. So that when I’ll become buddhi and will be going through my blog, I would have nice memories to laugh at. :’)
Thanks for reading.
So until my next post, keep your anger loosely.